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Excerpt #5 from “Mother Walked Into the Lake”

Mother Walked Into the Lake will be released December 5, 2017. Preorder now at



October 12, 2017

“In the dark, the man and I smiled. We smiled wide, until our smiles could not spread any farther upon our cheeks. Such smiling hurt. The man and I were in great pain but we smiled through it, smiled as though we did not know the idea of pain. We smiled even when we suddenly thought: There is something in the house…”

October 11, 2017

“There was something in the house. I did not think it was the man, I did not think it was me. But perhaps it was. Perhaps we lingered in the hallways as if we did not belong. We occupied those spaces that were meant to be shut away from us. When one did not belong, one did not necessarily feel such a way. When one did not belong, one sometimes thought: No, this is wrong…”

October 9, 2017

“It took some time before I calmed but then, when the man touched me, I did not flinch. I lay as if broken and the men petted me in long strokes. I felt that my limbs were disconnected from my body, that my bones were not mine, that not even my skin was attached. When the man’s hands were upon me, it was as if they really set upon another’s flesh…”

October 6, 2017

“I slept, I woke, I slept. I was feverish. Perhaps I was dead in bed, I did not know. I watched the ceiling for so long, as though it might open up to me. A fine crack ran the ceiling’s length and when I looked away, then back, it seemed the crack spread. It reminded me of a crack running through an egg shell…”

October 2, 2017

“I tried bathing but all the water in the house was ice-cold. I could not hold a hand beneath the stream for long. When I stripped naked and climbed into the bath, the streaming water shocked me to the point that I fell against the tiled wall and nearly cracked my skull down the center. The parts of me that touched the water gave off a thick blood that swirled around the drain and was gone…”

October 1, 2017

“I thought I might better like the pregnancy if I announced it. I had no one to talk to other than the man and so I announced my news to the emptiness of the house: I am pregnant. My voice traveled to the far side of the house, then repeated back. A voice much like my own said: I am pregnant…”

September 30, 2017

“He looked like a corpse. I did not know how to help him and so I fed him, then dried him. I felt for a heart beat. I pressed an ear to his chest and listened to his lungs drag. A thick liquid sloshed about within his ribs. I hid away from the man, terrified by his sickness…”

Excerpt #4 from “Mother Walked Into the Lake”

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September 27, 2017

“I slept again and when I woke, I was halfway up the staircase. The dark was very close. I smelled it. It was like wet earth. I stepped and tripped upon my gown. I woke a third time and stood at the kitchen sink, holding my hands beneath burning water. The burns felt like nothing. Blisters formed and I peeled them open…”

September 25, 2017

“The first night, the man and I crawled into one another. I could not get away from him. I was desperate for his flesh. I wanted to slice open his back and climb into his skin like a coat…”

September 20, 2017

“The man let me out of the locked room. I was relieved but then noticed how strangely the house felt, as though it were underwater. It seemed I swam from room to room. I was disassociated from my limbs. I walked as though I really floated. I could not make sense of where my body was in relation to anything else in the house…”

Excerpt #3 from “Mother Walked Into the Lake”

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September 8, 2017

“The man and I walked the house for hours, until our legs cramped and our thighs went cold. We wore down the staircase and bumped against the walls. I tripped over my gown many times and when I did, the man crawled beneath and ate. This went on and on, and it seemed like a dream because it went on for so long…”

Excerpt #2 from “Mother Walked Into the Lake”

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Excerpt #1 from “Mother Walked Into the Lake”

Mother Walked Into the Lake will be released December 5, 2017. Preorder now at



August 31, 2017

“I did not know how to help the man. Sickness seemed so much worse now that we were locked up within the house. Even a sneeze seemed to be a harbinger of death and the man was considerably sicker than that. He frothed in his sleep, he screamed. I poured salt over his stomach, his face…”

August 30, 2017

“Just after the dream, the man grew sick. He stumbled beside me, then lay upon the floor, his body overheated and sweating. I felt for his pulse but the thrumming was very weak. I spooned water into his mouth but the man turned his head to the side…”

August 29, 2017

“I dreamed the dead mounded outside the front door. Everything beyond the house withered. Every house, sidewalk, and street was a cemetery. The dead were flea-bitten and mangy, starved until their bones pushed out from their flesh, had crumpled stomachs that were torn down the middles by their weak crawls over stony and pitted paths…”

August 27, 2017

“The man and I closed the doors. It was better this way, for the house’s many spaces to be lessened. We did not trust that one or the other might not disappear into the darkness and be gone. Door after door was closed, with a click, a slam. I felt great relief each time a door wavered in its frame, then sealed, the dark shut up behind so that I did not have to see it again…”

August 15, 2017

“The man’s fever was gone soon enough. With its end, came the man’s terrible hunger. He and I went through the house, eating bits of flooring and wallpaper, pieces of chipped paint, hair. None of what we put in our mouths was enough…”

August 6, 2017

“It was a dark house and I did not want to go. It was too quiet, too cold. I told the man no. The house was haunted. The man pulled me and locked the door. The panic then, the blindness. I could not find my way; I clung to the man. He was not so brave…”

July 31, 2017

“In the dark, the man and I sat at the dinner table with a perfectly molded green gelatin quivering between us. The gelatin was a thing of beauty. At certain angles, I saw the man through it and he saw me. We did not cut the gelatin. We did not want to eat it. We only sat it down and pretended we were happy…”